I am listening to this... to help me through what is right now a very difficult time for me.
I urge any of you who have had crazy strings attatched to everything under the sun left right and center - conditional "love" to let me remind you.
You
are wonderful and awesome just the way you are - I don't care who they are - if they do not love you for who you are they must go **** themselves.
They are
not you... and I am extremely sorry if these "people" are your own "family".
Nothing and none is flawless.
I know a hell of a lot of how you feel ... do not follow other people's foot steps to get their approval... there is so much wrong with that... you will only be bitterly disappointed ... don't you ever forget who you are and what you believe in.
I cannot stress of how hard and miserable you might or most probably are.
If it helps - I love you.
Never bow down - or bother to respect anyone that does not love you and respect you for not being "number 1" in the world and your different views on what ever it may be or your dreams and call you a loser and claim you are a failure and want to do nothing with your life.
Go out and have fun with your friends and stay away from such an abusive, not free, not respecting and toxic environment.
For even if you can't see it.
Please know that you are special and that you are truly loved.