Christmas memories ...
I would assume that most have at least one or two fond Christmas memories ... y'know, peace, family, gifts, friends, festivity. I was thinking about this as I walked the dogs this morning (at 6:00 a.m. in the dark, you have some of the most random thoughts).
Anyway, I was walking down the block, some of the houses' Christmas lights were lit. I started to try and think fondly of Christmas but the first memory that popped into my head was when I was 12 or thirteen. My parents had just split up (which was a good thing, because my dad was a jackass, but that's another therapy session) and we had moved to a more manageable house for my mom and brothers. The weeks before Christmas that year, I would get home from school first. My older brother was staying out with his friends until late and my younger brother always went to the neighbors. Mom didn't get home until after 6:00. So, I was alone in the house as the sun went down. I'd turn on the tree lights but nothing else and sit there in the dark, listen to Christmas music on the radio and wonder where all the joy was.
When I got closer to home I thought hard to try and remember a fond Christmas memory and it occurred to me that any fond memories I have for this time of year have nothing to do with Christmas. (The birth of my son on Christmas Eve tops them all.)
If a ghost of a dead friend shows up and tells me three spirits will visit me, they better be distilled spirits, otherwise I'm going to stand up, drop my pants and tell him to kiss my shiny metal ass.