Its been 3 wks now , and your still missing . I love and miss you wherever you may be .
Oh my no I am so sorry.
If there is one thing I will say is your son has the most wonderful mother in the world / you mysticalspiral.
Once again my mother lost it with me for God knows what so at 12 at night I just took my keys with just my cell phone and head phones and left.
I walked for many hours as dangerous as hell in SA at night here.
We hear gun shots occasionally - I still did not give a damn about what I was doing - I would rather be out alone here than be alone at that house with people shouting at me a lot.
I am alone at that house any way (because they don't respect me) so I thought it would be much nicer to be alone with no one shouting at me.
It was pitch dark.
I walked to the ocean and contemplated drowning myself.
I wanted nothing to do with this world.
This was about 2 years ago.
No one called me.
No one cared.
They were not worried.
They didn't give a shit.
And when I finally changed my mind about dorwning myself in the Cape's freezing cold water and walked back for hours again to that house my family crapped all over me AGAIN.
My father said "the shit for you has just begun."
Screaming and shouting once again when I am trying so hard to talk to them.
Not fair - but then again nothing is.
I did not get the care I should have got in life
I can almost see in your eyes how much you care.
You are an extremely good parent.
Nothing can out a price on how awesome your love is for your child.
Your care for your child is beyond priceless.
Nothing can put a price on this. None can put a price on the most wonderful thing in the world.
I would give the world for it.
I would give all the gold in the world if some one would just love me for who I am.
I mean every single word with what I just said.
I am sorry for what has happened mysticalspiral.
I know you will find your son.
You are strong - I can see it everywhere and strength like yours is beyond awesome.
You will find your son.
I know you will.
You are a wonderful women mysticalspiral.