There's no right or wrong way to deal with death. We all do it differently.Is it wrong to say I am sadder that this lady died then my own mom what's worst I didn't know this lady existed any how rest in peace Jessica
When my childhood idol, John Lennon, was murdered, I was inconsolable...I mean for weeks. (And he died on my birthday.) A few years later, when my grandmother died, I didn't shed a tear. I had been estranged from her since leaving home at 16--because of her. We were on speaking terms (infrequent and awkward) by the time she died, but I really felt no sadness at losing her.
You're feeling what you're feeling. It's neither right nor wrong. It just is.